Taylor Frankie Paul gave a raw glimpse into her “hell on earth” reality amid her domestic violence scandal.
“Through every panic attack I prayed for strength as I could feel my body breaking down and out from the distress of it all,” the “Secret Lives of Mormon Wives” star, 31, wrote via Instagram on Easter Sunday.
“And HE sent just that in various ways along with so many undeniable signs saying ‘I am with you’ which I can’t wait to share that part,” she continued. “I’ve prayed since I was young and never strayed away because I believe he wants us to ask for help especially during our lowest points.”
The axed “Bachelorette” concluded, “However, instead of just asking I switched over to thanking him at the end of each day no matter how low I felt.”
The reality star’s social media upload included screenshots of vulnerable text messages and crying selfies, as well as photos of notes written in her Bible.
“I’ve never felt the pain I’m in now,” she wrote. “I cannot breathe. I’m sad, so sad and in so much PAIN. I can’t wait to help those in this.”
Paul additionally shared pictures of her skin breaking out during her “frantic state” and the products, including pain relief patches, she’s been using.
Her co-star Jessi Draper shared message of support in the comments, writing, “I love you ❤️ you’re the strongest person I know.”
On her Story that same day, Paul wrote about “detach[ing]” from her Mormon faith and “writing [that] out asa a release.”
“I’ll always have love and respect toward it,” she began the lengthy message. “I’ll even continue to go with my family at times. With that being said, it’s time to detach myself from it.
“I strongly believe in Christ, God, the Bible, the divine,” Paul continued. “I believe we are loved whether we are praying in the church building from a bathroom floor at home.”
She concluded, “I’ve also experienced grace and love from amazing people that aren’t sure what they believe at all and that’s okay. Point being there is more out there to learn.”
Paul’s troubles kicked off in March when “SLOMW” halted filming as she and ex Dakota Mortensen were investigated over an alleged domestic violence incident from February.
When footage of the duo’s previous 2023 fight — which infamously got Paul arrested — leaked, her upcoming season of “The Bachelorette” was pulled off air.
Paul is now being investigated regarding more past incidents of alleged domestic abuse.
She released a statement last month denouncing the scandal as the result of an “aggressive, jealous ex-partner who refuse[s] to let [her] move on.”
Mortensen, who has denied this “deeply upsetting” characterization, filed for a protective order against Paul.
This resulted in Paul temporarily losing custody of their 2-year-old son, Ever, with a court hearing scheduled for Tuesday.
If you or someone you know is affected by any of the issues raised in this story, call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or text START to 88788.
